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The Struggle Is Real

Hot dang! I thought these days were behind me. God has been teaching me so much lately. Everything has seemed to be on the right track for a couple months and His word has been speaking so loudly to me, confirming that I'm on the right track.

Then today happened. Nothing really specific happened. It really was a good day with the kids. We had such great time together! Then insecurity and anger crept in like the jerk it is. Add a sappy song and it's a perfect recipe for disaster. What in the world!?

I think there will just be bad days some times. Fighting the urge tonight to do anything I'll regret. It's hard. The struggle is so real!

I'm thankful I have the kids tonight. Thankful I have my parent's to talk me through these emotions. Thankful that Christ Himself has experienced all the same trials He asks me to endure. He goes ahead of me in each situation. Also walks beside me, helping me along. Tonight is one of those lay-on-the-floor-and-cry-out-for-help kind of nights. I'm confident that He will continue to do a good work in me, as long as I am faithfully obedient to Him.




“I waited patiently for the LORD to help me, and he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along. He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see what he has done and be amazed. They will put their trust in the LORD.”
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Psalms‬ ‭40:1-3‬ ‭NLT‬‬




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  1. CharlyJanuary 15, 2017 at 5:26 AM

    Praying for you. Keep up your faith. All things work together for good, for those who love God and are al called according to His purpose.

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  2. Julia WahlJanuary 15, 2017 at 8:16 AM

    I love you❤ Thank you for sharing so we can pray and be there for you!

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  3. UnknownJanuary 15, 2017 at 3:06 PM

    That was me Thursday! Praying with you and for you friend.

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